Niece Sara moves real purposefully, each movement its own breath.. I watch her in awe... my body and mind move much more abruptly than hers. Just observing her slows me down. "You are so interesting, Sara," I say. "You make me smile."
She's preparing to journal on her Apple, I've decided to blog alongside her.
"Every time I'm with you I get this unreal sense, kind of like I'm better than I really am," she says. Then she adds apologetically, "that's not a bad thing."
"It's bullshit," I say, somewhat sheepishly (have I been blowing steam up her ass?).
"How can it be bullshit; It's how I feel?" "It's bullshit, Sara, because that's not a feeling, it's a thought and the thought is bullshit. You are great. Like it or not."
"Whatever" she chided and sat down to type. I ignored the attitude and continued blogging.
First of all, shout out to Harriett! (www.Harriettswalk.com) for teaching me the difference between a thought and a feeling and the importance of distinguishing the two.
Sara has every right to think she's not (as) great as I think she is. How she feels as a result of this thought, and how she acts based on this process, that's her journey. I'll remind her when she's done writing why I think she's great. I'll encourage her to challenge her self judgments, like I encourage myself to do the same.
What we say to ourselves is important.Finding Balance is a blessing.
ain't she adorable?

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